Rantings

About blogging and facebook.

I like to follow people's blogs and check statuses on fb and sometimes I feel like a weird stalker especially with the people I don't know very well in person (which are most of them because I'm so incredibly shy). I love the honest posts and ones that make me think and relate to my own life and show what kind of people they are and the image they display. Most everyone only seem to say what is positive and fun and cool in their lives, others are boring, others I think "Aaah, too much information!"

One problem is thinking about who is reading what I am writing here. So many times I've gone to write a status update or blog and then delete it thinking "nobody cares what I have to say" or "Some of these friends won't get it or take this the wrong way." Which, unfortunately I have put my foot in my mouth a few times and feel like a jerk still. It kind of sucks sometimes to not be able to connect to the people I want, not being able to share my opinions or feelings, not having the tone of a sentence conveyed over the screen (that's probably a big one), worrying about the amount of positivity, negativity, sincerity, honesty, boring content, repetition, etc.

One person's blog I read recently talked about the pressure she feels from our culture, particularly the Mormon moms who seem to do everything well from cooking, organizing, gardening, crafting, sewing, cleaning, homeschooling, canning, teaching, reading, and are always stylish and gorgeous, patient and loving with a bunch of obedient, happy and perfectly dressed children. Phew! What a list... and there's even more that I can't think of at the moment, but it is incredible and overwhelming. Crazy, I know I feel that pressure sometimes, too, and it's ridiculous really.

It is hard to know how much feelings to put into posts. I love my husband and kids, but I hate to sound too mushy or insincere when I say so.

Alright, I think I'll just end now...